I’ve been quiet lately. Life has been busy. Good busy, but busy nonetheless, and I just haven’t wanted to end any of my days these last two weeks trying to be creative with my words. I’m not trying to be creative tonight, but I need to get some stuff down here for posterity.
There have been some moments lately, the kind that fire me up and keep me going strong. The kind that pick me up after a rough day. I’m in one of those peaks right now where I’m improving at the things I try, fascinating myself yet again with the things I can do. I don’t know when I’ll travel back to the next valley, but I’ll enjoy the air at this altitude as long as I can.
Last week, I did 30 back squats in a row, without racking the bar, at my bodyweight of 130 lbs. It was the hardest I’ve ever pushed myself in a strength workout. Once I hit 18 reps (the number I got last time I attempted this) and began to struggle, I lost confidence and began to settle thinking maybe low twenties would be good enough to finish. But I had the rare and awesome experience of having my husband there by my side, coaching me. Normally this is not a situation I like to be in, but he was all encouragement, giving me just the cues I needed, along with inspiring my need to impress him. I lost count after 20 because I went all cloudy, only hearing his voice, pushing me through one rep after another. All I could do was get one more rep until he told me to quit. When he finally announced “30,” I went to rack the bar and couldn’t. I was stiff and weak, and needed help from the others to guide the bar back into the rack.
Once free of the weight, my vision was black and blurry, and I thought I might hurl. My shoulders and neck were tense from holding the bar, and my hamstrings had no idea what had just hit them. Ronnie said “that’s how you know you had a good strength workout and really pushed yourself! That’s how it should feel.” It took awhile to get ready for the actual wod, which was 65 reps of pull-ups, kettle bell swings, and hollow rocks over the course of 9 rounds. I RX’d this wod, even after my back squat exertion, and actually improved on my pull-ups, stringing 4 – 5 in a row for most of the wod, and much faster with better form than my recent pull-ups had been. They felt good for a change.
Tonight, I enjoyed another PR, by way of bench press. Last time we did 1 rep max, 3 months ago, I broke a hundred by hitting 105. A couple weeks ago, I did 105 for 3 rep max. Today my goal was 115, but then Coach had us thinking of our goal and then warm up with a weight that was 25 lbs lighter, so I thought I’d push myself and go for 120. It seemed like a dream, but why not go out on a limb? That’s where the fruit is (thanks Mark Twain). I busted out my 5 warm-up reps at 95, and then went straight for 110. It was a surprising struggle, as I got caught halfway up but then somehow managed to power it through. I wondered if I should call it a day, since that wasn’t pretty. But no, I couldn’t stop there. I wasn’t stopping until someone had to lift the bar off my chest. 115 happened the same way. In fact it looked and felt just like 110. So why not go for 120? It came down and I fought to make it move off my chest, but it wasn’t going very far. My spotter reached out his hands to catch the bar, so I fought back by pushing it up. His hands floated beneath the bar as I managed to move it up, inch by inch, in slow motion. He never touched the bar. It just took that nudge, that thought of not wanting him to help me up with it, to drive that thing off my chest. It was an amazing feeling – that number seemed so impossible to me even a few hours ago before I attempted it! My goal of bodyweight bench press is not far away. In fact, next time, that will be my goal. It’s only ten pounds away.
Tomorrow we have Nancy, a workout that I’ve been dreaming of RX’ing. Overhead squats at 65 lbs and running. My favorite lift, but it will be a challenge. I’ve attempted 65 lbs in a wod before, but couldn’t finish without dropping to 60 halfway through, and that was fewer reps than what Nancy calls for. But, I’m stronger now, so I will attempt this again. Hopefully I won’t hit the inevitable valley of struggle till after I RX Nancy tomorrow!